New Year, New Direction

I haven’t written here for a while now – in fact it’s been well over a year since I last blogged regularly. The longer I’m absent, the harder it becomes to return; it feels as though the first blog post after a long break has to be a reintroduction of sorts, that I can’t just pick back up where I left off without providing an explanation and apology for my absence.

So here is that explanation-apology-reintroduction post. It doesn’t say much, really, but it gives me the freedom to talk about anything I like in my next post.

2017 was a busy year for me. On paper, it looks like a year full of success and achievements. But the final few months, in particular, were some of the busiest months of my life (perhaps excluding the time spent writing my PhD thesis, which I don’t find at all comparable to regular busyness). In the middle of the year, when I knew my life was already full to capacity with work and home life and study and volunteer activities, along came a new opportunity that I just couldn’t say no to. And instead of making room by dropping something else from my long list of commitments, I just added it to the mix and hoped for the best.

I got through the last few months only with the support of family, with too many days in bed recovering, and with asking too much of my husband while he’s trying to finish his PhD. So in 2018 I’m refocusing towards a slower pace of life. I’m not sure yet exactly how this year is going to pan out; I’m still not good at letting go of the things that I know aren’t as important to make more time for the things that are. But I want to be at home more to support my husband. I want to give myself more space to think and breathe and be. I want to enjoy life every day, not just look towards a future where I might finally have everything I want.

All this might mean I have more time to write. But then again, it might not. Slowing down is about choosing to do less, and choosing to prioritise the things that are most important to me right now. And as much as I love writing, it still falls fairly low on my list of priorities – below supporting my husband at home, below looking after my health and well-being, below spending time with my family and friends, below choosing sustainable but time-consuming options over convenient but wasteful ones. And, as much as I love blogging and reading other people’s blogs, the last thing I want to do after spending a long day sitting in front of a computer at work is to spend my evenings and weekends sitting in front of a computer screen writing and reading.

So all this is to say: I hope to see you again soon this year, but don’t be surprised if it doesn’t quite happen.

4 thoughts on “New Year, New Direction

  1. Whether you continue to write here or not, I hope 2018 goes well and that you enjoy a slower pace. I too have had a change in life-style and have moved from the south coast to land-locked urban West Yorkshire. After more than twenty-five years in Dorset, and almost all of that right next to the sea, it’s a big contrast – and very exciting.

    I’ve begun a new blog to go with my new home – Loose and Leafy in Halifax

    • Thanks Lucy! That attempt at a slower pace comes with very sporadic blog reading, writing and responding, so sorry that this reply is two months late! It looks like you’re finding plenty of interesting things to photograph and write about in your new home town. Best of luck for your 2018 πŸ™‚

  2. I hear you! Life is a great big juggling act. I hope you find the happy medium this year. Looking after yourself is so important. When I was studying I was always told ‘You can’t look after anyone else if you do not look after yourself’. That was in relation to nursing but I feel it applies to life in general. You can’t be your best person for those you love if you don’t make time to look after you. Good luck and best wishes for a happy and healthy 2018.

    • Thank you! I totally agree with you about looking after yourself. And sorry for the delayed reply – I’ve been rather neglecting my blog so far this year… But best wishes for your 2018 too πŸ™‚

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